To Be Owned Or Not To Be Owned Is No Longer A Question
There was a time when I craved being owned. I wanted to belong to a Dom…….My Dom. I wanted it more than anything and then I got my wish and I wasn’t happy. When the relationship ended I found myself feeling sad but strangely free and happy because of it. Thats when I realized that being owned just wasn’t for me. I’m too independent and I prefer to make decisions regarding my body and day to day life myself. I struggled to hand over the reins and it caused me more frustration than not. I just don’t function well under that type of control.
So what had I been craving??? Truthfully I really think I wanted to be owned because at the time I thought it was how things were supposed to go. That if I were a good sub it meant I should be owned. I don’t feel like that anymore. Not one bit. Now I would love find someone to relinquish control to from time to time. Someone to help me along in my journey of submission. The key word being MY journey. My own path. My own way. Submitting the way I want to and not the way other people think I should.
For now I am a happy girl. I know one day I’ll find the right person to submit to again. In the mean time my other needs are being met and that has given me clarity. I see where I want to go now. Slowly but surely I am on my way.