3 is a Magic Number
I have been tiptoeing around this post for a while because it seems that whenever I put my joy out into the universe it quickly turns to sadness. That being said I’ve felt an overwhelming need to share this stop in my journey with all of you. I have three lovely men in my life at the moment. Three men helping to make me whole.
I have a new Daddy. ( Yay!!! WoooHoooo!!!! Yahooooooo!!!!) I never thought I’d find another Daddy. Really I wasn’t sure I wanted another Daddy. I had been hurt before and I’d put my little away. It made me sad inside but it was the only way to protect her. My little is such a big part of me and my submissive self and not being able to express that side of myself was killing me. It tooks some time and a few misteps but I found what I was looking for in Daddy in a man I was already friends with and I’d like to think he’s found some of what he’s been looking for in a babygirl in me. We are taking things slow and enjoying each other. I’ve been able to let my little run free and its been pretty fucking awesome. I can’t explain how peaceful and content I feel almost every day now that this side of me has an outlet.
I also have a new Sir???? Top???? We’re still figuring thsese things out. LOL Basically I’ve found someone to help me with my sub side. The side of me that wants to be be on her knees serving her Dom as he sees fit……….Don’t get it twisted. I’m not looking to be someones slave or to be owned. I have a need to serve but I have my own terms and boundaries and I think I may have found my match in my department. Someone with a similar mindset not looking to make me loose myself in him but rather loose myself in me…… the me that wants to be his good little girl. This is new and we’ve only met once ( he’s local!!!! SQUEEEEEEE) but we are in constant contact as we figure out how this thing will go. I am happy at the moment with the direction in which we are headed. I’m a happy little slut :)
Most importantly I still have my hubby. @DirtyHubby is my base. He is my foundation. Without him none of this other stuff would matter. He is my lover, my friend, my confidant, my all. Yes I can say he is my all even though my kinks aren’t his thing. He makes my happiness possible by loving and trusting me enough to go and seek out what I need to satisfy my wants. Yes he is what I need and Daddy and Sir are what I want. Its all so simple and clear now. I was trying to find that one person but once I accepted that he may not exist I opened myself up to these possibilities. 3 is indeed a magic number.
I promise to keep you all posted with whats going on. Good or bad. I will share because sharing helps me heal and I think my sharing helps some of you too. Till next time loves!